Nightmare

Results are out and it seems like I've not done enough. Is it me or I made terrible mistakes? My frens doesn't even believe the results I got. Stress is building up in me. Stress is coming from every which way possible. From my parents and relatives and to the decision of choosing the right choice of University to begin my new life and to the particular course which I need to enrol in.

I cant bear this stress any longer. I have no one to talk to. I have no where to go. I have no support from anyone in my family. All I have is myself. All alone in the dark. Trying all my effort to free myself from this life and the only option is to begin a new life. Life isn't all that great when you don't have your own family to support you. Every decisions you make or have made will be judged greatly. Criticism keep on coming. Can't even have a peaceful morning without waking up into an arguement which later on ended up in a terrible fight which leads to an unrepairable fight.

These are the things going on in my life currently since Monday. History keep repeats itself day after day.I wonder how long i can stand the stress.My head seems to be feeling slighlty heavier as each second passes by.I might be well over this life when it finally ends.Hoping my frens will be there when the day comes.I will never forget the great times I had with my frens. Life is short.Unexpected things usually happen.All we can do is just pray and hope for the best.

Susuman <3

I finally found this mv on New Divide. Enjoy ^^

Susuman <3

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Well, its that time of the year again. Yup you guessed it, results will be released tml. Hoping for the best as always and wish that history never repeat itself. I wonder whether I will check my results in the morning or just wait till the very last minute of the day. Hope that I can meet the requirements neede to enrol in Nottingham University buy nevertheless, still hope for better than the requirements. Tonight will be the longest night ever for me to go through. I don't think I would be able to sleep soundly tonight or even rest my eyes for 5mins withouth thinking about the results i would get.

Wish all my buddies and friends that took A-levels with me the best of luck and for the best results tml. Good Luck guys!!

Susuman <3

Trip

Went for a one day trip to Genting on 01/08/09 with all my buddies.I think i finally conquered my fear of heights, and yes, I'm afraid of heights.Have loads of fun there. Haven had such a fun time in my life before.No need to think about anything,stress free (except for the part that I'm forced to try height-related game, well not exactly forced haha).Update more when I received the pics from Ms.Low and Mr.Long.Or u can head on to www.seventeenyears-gone.blogspot.com for updated pics from Ms.Low's blog.

A2 results are coming soon.7days and counting.No words can describe my feelings now. A bit of happy, scared, nervous all mixed up at the same time. Of well, hope for the best.

Susuman <3